Sad

Why are you always mad, he lies cuz he thinks I won't let him do things , he thinks the wedding show is for girls and doesn't want to go but is going only cuz I want him there .... I feel like I'm not good enough for him I want to cuddle and he says he can't sleep unless he gets off he says I can have what I want but I want him to care how I feel I've become more aware of his drinking and after the weekend with his friends where he was hurtful he wonders why it Bugs me he expects me to always be happy but doesn't understand how this next few days freaks me out bad .., ok ttyl

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What is this blogg for

well sometimes i feel very  alone and its hard for me to lean on people when I'm down. Its a work in progress but some times are better than others. so to help myself Ive created this blog sometimes it will be good sometimes not but now that i have my computer set up i hope that i will take some time to do it more maybe work on things i want to get done like work on book and projects and stuff so we will have to see. If you don't like what you read please just don't read it!